Trackback: Did I really write this? P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C!

“Forget him, girl. He’s gone!” a friend of mine said.
“Yup, move on…Come to think of it, he was never yours. Never. Yours.” another friend of mine whose “wow” as in words of wisdom kept reveberating in my head like a beat that won’t go away. Last song syndrome? Perhaps.

I sighed and inspite of me, I smiled. Funny, as I’ve told myself those same,exact words but to no avail. Maybe I’m just being stubborn but I dunno. I just can’t forget him. No freakin’ way I could afford to forget him. No freakin’ way!!!

There were one too many times I convinced myself I’m soooo over him. Tried every single step I know just so I ‘d get over him, every singe step with utmost care and certainty. I tried as hard as I can to just forget the whole thing but the ghost of him continued to haunt me and I keep coming back to where I started — loving and longing more and more of him each day. Most of my friends think I’m a bit deranged. And this whole thing, this whole concept of loving him incedulous. I’m deranged, yes, maybe I am. Well, maybe not at all. If there’s anyone in this world who’d succeeded to forget the one special person who consumed and occupied his entire being, pray tell me so he could share his two cents worth regarding forgetting and moving on. Then perhaps I will be “healed”!

But how does one really let go? How does one really forget? Is there a science to it? Or perhaps an art? What if I really don’t wanna let go? But, what if I’m just being plain stubborn? Perhaps I’m still hopeful, falsely and desperately hoping that there’s an ending to all of these — a happy-ever-after kinda ending — that’s why I am enjoying this “limbo-himbo” parade that’s raining on me.

Do I really wanna let go? Maybe not at all! Do I really wanna forget him? No! For there isn’t a thing as forgetting, for when a relationship ends, the two parties aren’t totally indifferent of each other — one would hate too much or would continue loving. You see, you can never forget someone! Because the opposite of love is not hate but according to Leo Buscaglia it is indifference, it’s apathy. Once you love someone, that’s already a point of no return, there’s no crossing back. It would be there in your heart somewhere and would leave no more. It’s gonna stay there. When you love someone, it doesn’t go away, thus becomes an intergral part of you, Lest, it becomes you. Then it forces you to care, to love more, to give, to share…

Yes, I could begin a new life, a life that most of my friends have ever intended me to have. But that life would still be a never ending weaving of dreams, of him and me, and love and life. There’s so much joy, surprisingly despite the pain, the heartaches, there’s something undeniably forcing me to ba happy, to be hopeful, to feel joy. There’s so much joy loving him so why depart from it? I may have gone crazy. But love is crazy, isn’t it? And anyone who’s in love is crazy. For it is craziness loving someone without being loved in return. If you get hurt in the process of loving, if you cry a river of tears, that isn’t pain. It’s simply something that reminds you that you sincerely, truly love someone.

Still they say time heals all wounds. I say it doesn’t. It’s gonna leave a scar. They say time makes hearts a little number not to feel pain. I don’t wanna be numb or my heart to get number. I only want love, not time, to heal me. What I want is for time to allow me to hope — to hope that someday, somewhere, someone would be there. What I want is for time to prepare me to love again if he’s not coming back. Still, I don’t believe that love dies. It doesn’t die, for when you say you’re over someone, that doesn’t mean you stop loving but realize that you’ve given that person the love you’re supposed to give and that you have to find another with whom you could give all the love you have in you. That’s what the quest, the search for “The One” is all about.

As of the moment, I am content loving him, even from afar, even if I’m hurting. I don’t care one bit if he can’t love me back, if I can’t take my heart back. For as Roland Barthes said :
“I know no end to desiring you. But why would I seek an end to it? I carry a picture of you in my head like some precious object. I was happy for days. So why would I seek to end this when what makes me happy rests solely on you?”

Don’t ever say it’s pathetic. No! It really isn’t easy to get over a person and move on, especially if that one person, if that one love was the only love you ever wanted.

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George Michael is the Man!

Have you seen the Amercian Idol finale? Grabe as in grabe talga, nagulat ako sa performance ni George Michael!!! I mean, uber! OA na kung OA pero super na-hit talaga ako, bull’s eye! Kung tutuusin, hindi naman siya super powerful mag-perform, but I think that because he really sang from his heart and with so much emotion, naiyak talaga ako! Grabe! Super tahimik din ang audience while he was performing as if mourning with him, praying and crying with him! Ang galing! And whattasong! What a super beautiful, meaningful song! It hit me home, big time! I could feel his soul, his heart crying!

I enjoyed watching the show because of his performance, hell, I know David Cook’s gonna make it! Hello, sumakit ang ulo ko dahil sa LSS syndrome ng version niya ng Always be my Baby ni Mariah! Having that voice and that look would bring him places, give him the ability to write his own songs and play a certain instrument would surely make one-man-bands a run for their money!

I gotta give it to you George Michael, super love kita talaga. Hindi ko madalas aminin pero I really love “Careless Whisper”, kasama yan sa list ng fave songs ko!

Here’s the lyrics of “Praying for time”

These are the days of the open hand
They will not be the last
Look around now
These are the days of the beggars
And the choosers

This is the year of the hungry man
Whose place is in the past
Hand in hand with ignorance
And legitimate excuses

The rich declare themselves poor
And most of us are not sure
If we have too much
But well take our chances
Because God stopped keeping score
I guess somewhere along the way
He must have let us all out to play
Turned his back and all gods children
Crept out the back door

Chorus
And its hard to love,
Theres so much to hate
Hanging on to hope
When there is no hope to speak of
And the wounded skies above
Say its much too late
Well maybe we should all be
Praying for time

These are the days of the empty hand
Oh you hold on to what you can
And charity is a coat you wear
Twice a year

This is the year of the guilty man
Your television takes a stand
And you find that what was over there
Is over here

So you scream from behind your door
Say whats mine is mine and not yours
I may have too much
But Ill take my chances
Because God stopped keeping score
And you cling to the things
They sold you
Did you cover your eyes when
They told you
That he cant come back
Because he has no children
To come back for

The New 7 Wonders of Nature

‘Tis a bit disappointing that none of our country’s many entries in the New 7 Wonders of Nature couldn’t afford to be on the top 7! I think we’re slacking off, I mean, aren’t we the ones pestering Michael’s Smith friendster resources everyday and yet we couldn’t spare 5 min of our time to vote??? I mean, what are we doing? Aren’t we proud that the Philippines is gifted with 7,107 beautific and enigmatic Islands?!

Ang hirap sa Pinoy, puro talangka ang mentalidad. Ayaw umunlad, ayaw umusad. Hellooo???!!! Dito tayo nakatira sa Pilipinas pero parang wala tayong pakialam! Pilipino tayo pero hindi natin mahal ang pagiging Pilipino at ikinahihiya pa ito. More, ayaw nating nalalamangan ng kapwa natin Pinoy! Ano ba naman yan!? I mean ako, ha, super proud ako kay Charice Pempengco, hello! Tapos nagyong buong mundo ang sumasayaw ng Papaya, hindi ka ba matuwa?! And eto, my golly gow gow naman! Holy cow talaga! Bakit ba hindi natin mapa-akyat ang Pinas sa 7 wonders…e kung maka-pag internet nga tayo at makapag blog e napahaba ng oras natin!? Bakit na hindi natin buhatin ang isa’t isa paangat!?

Tingnan ninyo ung number one sa list, ung Halong Bay na kung tutuusin e puwedeng tapat ng El Nido ng Palawan, a, pero hindi matinag tinag!

 

Halong Bay, Vietnam                                             

  

El Nido, Palawan, Philippines

Cox’s Bazar, Bangladesh

Manila Bay, Philippines

 Mt Fuji, Japan

Mayon Volcano, Philippines

 

Hello, may panapat tayo sa lahat ng nasa top 7, noh! (Except Mt Everest and sa mga rivers…)!

VOTE NA KAYO, PLS!

http://www.new7wonders.com/nature/en/liveranking/

Why the Philippines is poor!

THE DIFFERENCE

The difference between the poor countries and the rich ones is not the age of the country:

This can be shown by countries like India & Egypt , that are more than 2000 years old, but are poor.

On the other hand, Canada , Australia & New Zealand, that 150 years ago were inexpressive, today are developed countries, and are rich.

The difference between poor & rich countries does not reside in the available natural resources.

Japan has a limited territory, 80% mountainous, inadequate for agriculture & cattle raising, but it is the second world economy. The country is like an immense floating factory, importing raw materials from the whole world and exporting manufactured products.

Another example is Switzerland , which does not plant cocoa but has the best chocolate in the world. In its little territory they raise animals and plant the soilduring 4 months per year. Not enough, they produce dairy products of the best quality! It is a small country that transmits an image of security, order & labor, which made it the world’s strongest, safest place.

Executives from rich countries who communicate with their counterparts in poor countries show that there is no significant intellectual difference.

Race or skin color are also not important: immigrants labeled lazy in their countries of origin are the productive power in rich European countries.

What is the difference then? The difference is the attitude of the people, framed along the years by the education & the culture & flawed tradition.

On analyzing the behavior of the people in rich & developed countries, we find that the great majority follow the following principles in their lives:

1. Ethics, as a basic principle
2. Integrity
3. Responsibility
4. Respect for the laws & rules
5. Respect for the rights of other citizens
6. Work loving
7. Strive for savings & investment
8. Will of super action
9. Punctuality
10. and of course…Discipline

In poor countries, only a minority follow these basic principles in their daily life.

The Philippines is not poor because we lack natural resources or because nature was cruel to us. In fact, we are supposedly rich in natural resources.

We are poor because we lack the correct attitude. We lack the will to comply with and teach these functional principles of rich & developed societies.
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What now?  If you do not forward this message nothing will happen to you.  Your pet will not die, you will not be fired, you will not have badluck for seven years, and also, you will not get sick or go hungry.

But those may happen because of your lack of discipline & laziness, your love for intrigue and politics, your indifference to saving for the future, your stubborn attitude.

If you love your country, let this message circulate so that many Filipinos could reflect about this, AND CHANGE, ACT!