My Own Ex-Commandments…

Sawa ka na bang umiyak? Masaktan? Mag-isip? Sisihin ang sarili mo for the many oppotunities and chances na pinalampas mo? Mga oras na sinayang? Pagod ka na bang panoorin ang mga sari-saring scenes sa utak mo? Ang pauli-ilit na isipin at i-regret ang napakaraming “what if’s” and “if only” sa buhay mo? Then welcome to the club.

 Ako, to deal with my ever-OA na plano to finally get over someone, come up with my own commandments. Hopefully masunod ka talaga lahat.

 1. DO NOT OPEN HIS FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT. Or else, paulit-ulit at patuloy ka lang maho-hook na tingnan siya at i-update ang sarili mo sa mga whereabouts niya. Try not to look at his account for a week, then it’ll soon be a habit.

2. GO OUT WITH MALE FRIENDS, OFTEN. It doesn’t mean that just because you have your heart broken, you should run to any available guy. Enjoy your guy friends’ company and you’ll be surprise to know na kaya no ring mag-enjoy sa company ng lalaki na hindi mo bf.

3. DON’T WATCH ROMANTIC MOVIES (kasama diyan ang pakikinig ng mga pathetic lovesongs at pagbabasa ng mga romance novels). Believe me, maaalala mo lang siya. Ako nga ayoko ng marinig ang kanta ng Reo Speedwagon na “In my Dreams”.

4. LOOK FOR DIVERSIONS AND KEEP YOURSELF BUSY. Hindi sa umiiwas kang harapin ang totoo dahil believe me, with or without that person around, nandiyan lagi ‘yong pain, ‘yong feelings. Maganda na rin ‘to para walang time para mag-wallow sa self-pity and dry your tear ducts to death. Try to engage yourself in a sport or a hobby.

5. NEVER LOOK AT OLD PHOTOGRAPHS, Esp HIS. Maghanap ka na lang ng ibang pagsasawaan mong tingnan. I always love looking at Johnny Depp, I love you Johnny Depp!

6. FIND WAYS, no matter how simple or small they maybe, TO PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE, ALWAYS! Malay mo, may ma-attract sa smile mo di ba? Sabi nga nila never frown for you’ll never know who might fall in love with your smile.

7. RECONNECT WITH OLD FRIENDS. Especially friends na hindi siya kilala. The less his name gets mentioned, the less the chances na maisip mo siya. Plus, you get to talk about things and moments you shared with them before like college antics di ba? Reunion to the max!

 8. EAT YOUR GUILTY FOOD. Yihah! It’s high time you eat those mouthwatering foods you’ve deprived yourself of. Ice cream. Chocolates. Cakes. Yummy! These foods contain endorphin, a substance that serves to suppress pain.

9. TREAT YOURSELF. Shop. Get a make-over. Buy a new book. Make a career shift. Do anything that would make you feel good about yourself, do something that would bring back the self-worth you seem to have lost and lastly do something na alam mong mag-e-enjoy ka.

10. GET A LIFE. Try something new, something you’ve never done before. If you haven’t participated in any outreach programs before, try to participate, wag lang mag-donate. Mas masarap maging volunteer, iba ‘yong feeling. Or kung lately hindi mo nagagawang mag-soul searching, I guess this is the best time para gawin mo ‘yon and mas maganda kung mag-out of town kang mag-isa. Ako, I’m planning to enrol in a pole dancing class. Sabi nga nila matatanggal ang stress at inhibitions mo, papayat ka pa. Jackpot di bah? At sabi nga ni Madonna sa song niya na Vogue:

“Look around everywhere you turn is heartache
It’s everywhere that you go
You try everything you can to escape
The pain of life that you know

When all else fails and you long to be
Something better than you are today
I know a place where you can get away
It’s called a dance floor.”

O sige, guys goodluck na lang sa paraan mo ng paglimot at pag move on. You could also come up with your own list. Kaniya-kaniyang diskarte ‘yan!

what a 20-something woman would do on a Sunday while sick…

Wala.  

Boring.

Nakakabato.

Nakakainis.

Gusto kong manood ng TV.

Makinig ng music.

Um-attend ng Sunday service.

Kaso hindi puwede. Ilang araw akong sneeze lang ng sneeze at namamaga ang mga mata. Nakakainis talaga. Hindi naman ako sakitin pero talagang madali akong sipunin. Tuloy kahit sobrang dry na ang tearducts ko, patuloy sa pagpatak ang luha ko. Hay, every fours hours, iinom ka ng anti-biotic, every 4 hours din kelangang i-monitor ang temperature. Okay lang kasi bumaba naman ang lagnat ko from a very haute 40 to 39, hay, siguro kung hindi pa sanay ang nanay ko na talagang mataas/malakas ako lagnatin, malamang naisugod ako sa Medical City nang wala sa oras. Nung bata kasi ako, OA daw ang lagnat ko, more than 40 degrees daw, pero umiiyak lang daw ako at hindi pa kinumbulsiyon. Mutant kasi ako.

 Going back to my very boring Sunday, wala akong ibang choice kundi makinig na lang ng MP3 sa cellphone ko. Paulit ulit ng 13 songs as in : Real ng Plumb, Insensitive ni Jann Arden, Landslide ng Smashing Pumpkins, As Long As It Matters ng Gin Blossoms, Kaleidoscope World ni francis M, The World I Know ng Collective Soul, Snow Patrol’s Chasing Cars, 3 door’s Down’s Here Without You, Dishwalla’s Somewhere in the Middle at hindi ko na matandaan ang iba pa.

 Sana nga kaya kong magbasa kaso lang sobrang sakit ng mata ko.

Hay mabuti na lang mutant ako, haha, after two days of being sick, magaling na ako…hehehe…hindi rin tumuloy ang sumpong ng asthma ko, yehey…

Nostradamus : Witch or prophet?

‘Pag uwi ko ng bahay kanina, hindi ako makatulog, sabi ko magpapa-antok muna ako. I remember na bumili nga pala ko recently ng VCD ni Nostradamus as complied and produced by Dennis Holper. “The Man Who Saw Tomorrow” ang title. Napanood ko na ‘to dati, sa Channel 2, pero hindi buo. Na-amaze lang ako and na-intriga dahil napakaraming nagkatotoo sa prediction niya.

 Habang pinanonood ko ung documentary film, sobrang grateful ‘yung pakiramdam ko that I wasn’t born during those times na naghari si Napoleon and Hitler sa Europe at sa Pilipinas ako ipinanganak. Sobrang hindi ko alam kung papaano akong magsu-survive at paano ko po-protektahan ang family ko at mga friends kapag nasa gitna ng gulo at war.

Nakaka-amaze lang how the interpretation of his poet-like writings(quartrains) proved to be prophecies talaga. Though siguro may mga times na dahil sobrang nagkakatotoo lahat ng prophesies niya (specially those na mangyayari pa lang), people used those prophecies para sa pansariling dahilan.

 Pero ang higit na nagpa-convince sa akin somehow ay ‘yong tungkol sa pagpatay kay John F. Kennedy. Kasi kitang kita sa TV na dalawang shots ‘yong pumatay sa kaniya. According to Nostradamus in the 2nd line of that quratrian, merong manggagaling sa roof (Lee Oswald was on the 6th floor nang katapat na Building) and ayon naman sa 3rd line ay “innocent daw ‘yun” at merong nakatago sa “misty woods”. Nung na-close up ‘yong camera, the first shot really came from the 6th floor pero ‘yong second shot was galing sa 1st floor or sa baba talga where bushes were grown. Ang ‘nung na-zoom ang camera, parang may tao nga sa likod ng halamanan pero dahil tapos na ‘yong incident nang maimbestigahan ‘yon, wala ng way para habulin ‘yong assasin.

 Ang one more thing, ‘yong tungkol sa 911 WTC Attack s New York, ‘yon din ‘yong prophecy niya. Maaring coincidence lang pero sobrang napakarami talaga ng precidtions niya para ipagwalang bahala. Let us see the quartrains pertaining to this tragedy :

At forty-five degrees, the sky will burn,
Fire approaches the great new city,
Immediately a huge, scattered flame leaps up
When they want to have verification from the Norman
(Century VI, Quatrain 97)

Experts agree this could only be New York.

 Witchcraft? Scorcery? Ewan ko! Pero hindi masamang makinig or maniwala sa kaniya di ba? It doesn’t mean naman that you’re putting your faith sa kaniya, we could heed his warnings para maiwasan lahat ng mga tragedies na puwede pang mangyari specially na may World War III siyang nakikita. Kung ngayon pa lang we would live with cautions based sa mga prophecies niya, we could change our destiny di ba.

 Be the judge. Panoorin ninyo rin kung may time kayo…

Ciao!

ERAP : The Verdict

 Anim na taon tayong naghintay and finally meron na ngang decision. It was sad for someone whom we all had once admired, whose movies we all had seen and we all witnessed the kind of attachment he had established with the commoners, but we have to accept and respect SandiganBayan’s decision :  ERAP, GUILTY sa PLUNDER! I am not an ERAP fan, nor an FPJ’s but there’s still a certain “kurot” feeling over what happened.

 But I am proud of the outcome of the whole event — 2 things stood out. One, there is JUSTICE ; that there is still hope for the judicial system afterall. Hindi patay ang hustisya, may batas at umiiral ito. Second, NO ONE IS ABOVE THE LAW, that the LAW maybe harsh, but it’s the law. Pantay-pantay ang lahat at hindi isinasaalang alang kung sino at ano ka sa lipunan para makamit ang hustisya. Na kahit ang minsang pinaka-makapangyarihang tao sa Pilipinas ay maparurusahan kung mayroon itong nilabag na batas.

 Iba iba ang naging reaction ng mga tao. May nagalit, may natuwa, may nagbunyi at may naiyak. Siguro kung nagkataon at ama ko si Erap, talgang magiging napakahirap nito, baka hindi ko rin matanggap ‘yong hatol. I would really close my mind, my eyes sa lahat lahat. Hindi ko siguro isusuko ang tatay ko. Pero kahit bali-baligtarin natin ang mundo, hinding hindi natin puwedeng isantabi na may kasalanan siyang dapat pagbayaran.

 One of the greatest arguments na sinabi sakin ng isang kaibigan (nung college pa kami dahil pumutok ang issue na to when I was 3rd yr sa college), “Bakit masyado nating kinu-convict si Erap, eh, hindi naman kaban ng bayan ang ninakaw niya?” napaisip din ako. But I made a witty comeback. Kung sakali mang totoo at nakinabang siya sa jueteng, mas lalong malaki ang kasalanan niya. Una, dapat siya ang nangunang i-abolish ang isang ilegal na sugal gaya nito kung saan walang pakinabang ang taong bayan. Sabi ko non, hindi bale ang Lotto, at least under PCSO siya at ang pondo ay ginagamit sa maraming socio-civic activities. Meaning, kahit sabihing mong one way or another merong corrupt na official sa PCSO, alam mong may pinupuntahan ang pera. Pangalawa, siguro nga hindi kaban ng bayan ang kinuha ni Erap, hindi ‘yong kaban ng bayan na nanggaling sa buwis pero isipin mo rin, nato-tolerate ang pagsusugal ng mga karaniwang Pinoy, imbes na ipambili ng bigas or masarap na ulam para sa mga anak or ihulog sa alkansiya’t ipunin ‘yong pera, pinantataya ng jueteng. Hindi nga ito lantarang pagnanakaw pero kahit paano may epekto ito sa kalagayang pampinansiyal ng karaniwang tao di ba? Mga Pinoy pa na mahilig sa easy money!

 Pero ang mas dapat nating isipin at pagtuunan ng pansin ay kung paano tayo susulong. Kung paano, despite the many scandals, mishaps and tragedies sa Pinas, makakaya nating umusad. Let this be part of history, meaning natapos na, dapat nating pulutin lahat ng aral na makukuha natin pero dapat hindi mawala ang focus natin sa totoong goal – maging 1st world country ang Pinas.

W.O.M.A.N

The Silent Treatment


A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each
other the silent treatment.  Suddenly, the man realized that the next day,
he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight.

Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper,
“Please wake me at
5:00 AM ” He left it where he knew she would find it.
The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM
and he had missed his flight.  Furious, he was about to go and
see why his wife hadn’t wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by
the bed. The paper said, “It is 5:00 AM. Wake up.”
Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests.

 WIFE VS. HUSBAND


A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word.

An earlier discussion had led to an argument and

 neither of them wanted to concede their position.

As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs,

the husband asked sarcastically, “Relatives of yours?”

 “Yep,” the wife replied , “in-laws”

 WOMEN’S REVENGE

 “Cash, check or charge?” I asked, after folding items the woman wished to purchase.

As she fumbled for her wallet I noticed a remote control for a television set in her purse.
“So, do you always carry your TV remote?” I asked.
“No,” she replied, ” but my husband refused to come shopping with me,

and I figured this was the most evil thing I could do to him legally.”

 

 

UNDERSTANDING WOMEN

(A MAN’S PERSPECTIVE)

I know I’m not going to understand women.

I’ll never understand how you can take boiling hot wax,

pour it onto your upper thigh, rip the hair out by the root,

and still be afraid of a spider.

 

W O R D S

 A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day…

30,000 to a man’s 15,000.

The wife replied, “The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men…

 The husband then turned to his wife and asked, “What?”

CREATION

A man said t o his wife one day, “I don’t know how you can be

so stupid and so beautiful all at the same time.

” The wife responded, “Allow me to explain.

God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me;

God made me stupid so I would be attracted to you!

 

WHO DOES WHAT

A man and his wife were having an argument about who

should brew the coffee each morning.

The wife said, “You should do it, because you get up first,

and then we don’t have to wait as long to get our coffee.”

 The husband said, ” You are in charge of cooking around here and

you should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee.”

Wife replies, “No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible

that the man should do the coffee.”

Husband replies, “I can’t believe that, show me.”

So she fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testament

and showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says……….”HEBREWS”

 

 God may have created man before woman,

but there is always a rough draft before the masterpiece.

I Have Moved On…?

Not too long ago, I wrote this (in my previous blog…janistheprodigalhiker.blogspot.com) ”

“What’s the wisest thing to do if you extremely want something or someone that/who can never be yours (or can never be yours again or was never yours)?Let go.

Easier said than done. We may defy it, resist it or rebel against it, but that’s the way it should be…or the way we should go.

Let go.

This is definitely a big challenge for me as it is for anyone else…
You see, if you’ve been reading my blog (hahaha…I wish a lot’ve read it though it seems like Aimz is my only avid fan, not to mention Malen) I couldn’t seem to forget him nor let go of the biggest “could’ve been” or “what if of my life”…Now I’ve come to realized that the factual thing behind crying bouts and sleepless nights, of being too frustrated and broken-hearted and not being able to move on is due to holding on to him and this special thing we’d shared, too much, way too much. There’s still this sense of unreality with and in everything that had happened. There are still alotta unanswered questions…A lotta unspoken words…but…
I simply have to let go. I must let go…

I would like to share this SMS I received from Rajsh :

“There are things in the world that can never be ours…just because of these simple truths….1. They are bad for us…2. They belong to someone else…3. We already lost the opportunity to claim them as our own…and4. They are just not meant to be ours.So if you’re caught up with wanting something you clearly can’t have, remember : You may trade in all your cards for what you want… in the end, maybe you’ll find that it’s not something (or someone) you really need.”
I am not saying that I’ve gotten over him, really I don’t think it will be any sooner but I definitely say I could and I would. Crying bouts isn’t overdue yet but it will soon be, I believe.
It had been too painful loving him and keeping him and it had caused me a lot of miseries, too. I’ve given up other men in favor of him who might not have any idea or might not love me back or love me in the same way I love him. But that’s okay, I believe that though love may not require you to physically wilt and die, there are one too many emotional tortures. I couldn’t blame him nor myself because it had already happened and there’s nothing I , him or anyone can do to undone it. Maybe I really lost the opportunity to own him when I was too busy living my life and forgot to get his signals and undeliberately hurt him in the process. Little did I know I’d regret over that and lost him forever. Now I coudl only look and love afar and hope for eternal happiness for him. I could only be happy and equally proud of what he had become, successfully finding his place under the sun and standing firmly on it.

I would stop thinking of him that much and start to convince myself that it’s a lost cause, that he’s not coming back. I have to tell myself the dreaded truth only I refused to acknowledge : He is not mine and he’ll never be. I have to move on and live on for I have a full life ahead of me.
It’s like telling yourself that it’s no use crying over spilled milk and let bygones be bygones, let’s charge everything to experience.

He goes east, I’ll go west… and we both will live.

That’s all for now.”

Pero ngayon, when I read through this again, napapangiti na lang ako, wondering how I survived and finally moved on…’Kala ko dati, wala ng pag-asa.

Well, siguro nga ready na akong makita siya…kung magkikita pa kami…

At masasabi ko ba na minsan minahal ko talaga siya?

Siguro.

Mukha naman kasing “happy” siya sa buhay niya at kung ipipilit ko ang gusto ko, I might cause him problems and anxiety…

Well, I hope he continues to be happy and successful!

Inday, La SeÑorita

Naaaliw talaga ako kay Inday lately. I wanna thank Neph for sending me SMS updates about Inday’s megascapades. I compiled them for everyone’s enjoyment.

Advance Payment
“Norture others with positive, truthful words, not words that hurt. It doesn’t cost anything to do so.
But mean what you say, and say what you mean. Do it everyday.
This is one of the most obvious qualities of the most beloved people.
If you cannot be generous financially, at least be generous with words.”
– sagot ni Inday sa amo niya matapos hindi pautangin at pagmumurahin pa.
Fishes (?)
Amo : Inday, bumili ka nga ng mga isda.Uo nga pala, Inglesera ka na ngayon. Would you please purchase many fishes for our food this week?
Inday : Judging from your statement, I believe you meant a variety of fish. The term “fishes”, although rarely used, connotes a plethora or an array of different kind of afformentioned gilled creatures. But the more pressing question before I traverse the road to the market would be : What certain type of fish? Fillet or not? Frozen or just right smack the day’s catch?
(pauses)
Aaahhh….by manner of careful extrapolation, given the meager budget of this household’s quasi-peasant middle class taste, I assume then that I will source the staple ga-lewng-gowng, am I correct?
Amo : Leche!
Inday : You meant the freshwater milkfish? Then, ba-ngooz, is it?
(Hanep, hindi lang nosebleed, internal hemorrage pa!)
Blogster
“Love – a wildly misunderstood
although highly desirable malfunction of the heart that weakens the brain,
 causes the eyes to sparkle,
cheeks to glow,
blood pressure to rise
and lips to pucker.”
– Inday habang gumagawa ng blog sa friendster.

Mega Sosyal Day-off
“I have been to the Fort. Visited a friend of mine in her condo at Serendra. Anyway, I bought some desserts from Xocolat for all of you. “
(Explain ni Inday kung saan siya nag-day off while wearing her new dress from Zara.)

Steamy Love Session over the Phone
“I was just reminiscing  about last night; it was so perfect.
The subtle breeze made me shiver from time to time.
You’re so passionate and intense. When you start to speak , I am  simply bawled over by your eloquence.
I am so glad we were able to talk outside.”
(Inday habang kausap si Dudong sa phone.)

The Story of Success and Oven
“Success is often the result of taking a misstep in the right direction.
Show me a person who has never made a mistake and I’ll show you somebody who has never achieved much.”
(Sagot ni Inday nung sumabog ang microwave oven na gamit niya.)

Angel Locsin
“Sometimes people choose to leave not because of selfish reasons, but because they just know that things will get worse if they will stay.
Leaving can be a tough act and it’s harder when people can hardly understand you for doing so.”
– comment ni Inday sa pag-alis ni Angel Locsin sa GMA-7.

Inday’s Fave Song

Many are saying that the song “The Greatest Love Of All” is wrong because of the line “learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all” and that is being selfish, but on the contrary, how can you give love if you don’t have love in you? Can you give what you don’t have? So, for  short, we have to be equipped to give and it all begins in us. Love and helping.     

-galing kay Inday. Nakainom ng 2 boteng Generoso kagabi. Fave song niya yun, hanggang ngayon wala pa rin sa katinuan.

Gimik

Hey, are you doing anything tonight? Can you join me for a few drinks? Don’t worry, my treat…Sky is the limit…Just want somebody to talk to. He left me na kc for that bitch. We can meet up at Capones and then afterwards we’d go to Embassy.

– Inday, sawi sa pag-ibig. INiwan kasi ni Dodong